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so sleep alone tonight
She wants to be happy.
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Beseech
Don't judge me.
I'm touchy, so be nice.
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& life starts to be full of misery again.
Im having these bad thoughts in my head. Thoughts which are possible to be true. Im having these feelings. Feelings that are sad, confused & all I want to do is cry. I thought to myself during the Ps, I love you movie, it's good to be crying again. I felt my hot tears rolling down my cheeks when it came to the sad, emotional parts. & now, the tears kept on coming. sheesh. On the 28th, yest, I was on my way to work. I had a feeling that he's not coming to work. I guessed that he just left us like that since it was his last day working, yest. When I arrived, my supervisor, Alan didnt say anything to me. I looked at the schedule book & his name was cancelled. So I asked Alan casually whether is he really not working today. & Alan told me that he's hospitalized. I was shocked. On 27th, which is the day before, he fainted in the train on the way to work. The ppl in the train sent him to the hospital. Naseer told me that he has a sickness of low blood pressure. He'll grow weak if he doesnt eat enough. Goshh. I tried to appear cheerful but deep down, Im so worried. When you know that your soulmate has a sickness, you tend to love them more. They will appear more precious to you than they alr have. You will give them the extra care. & you will try your best, to not let them go. Im not saying that he's my soulmate or whatever. It's just that, I realized that one will feel that way when he/she has a very special someone who is in these conditions. Tuesday, 26th was the last day I worked with him without even knowing. How sad): I really hope he's better now. I dont think I can work with him for another day anw from what Im developing in me these days. It is wrong. I cannot like him. He doesnt like me. I have a boyfriend. I cannot like him.
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