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Soul-searching day.
Had breakfast at THE LINE today. Poolside, which is the dept Im in hit the target for our sales on the month of Jan. So we, poolsiders, got to eat breakfast there for freee!(: It was fun. But I was quiet most of the time. Every one was involved with their own convos. Abuzar with Nasser, Reena with Peace, Alan with Udin & Kok Eng & I was left there listening to each of their convos. Hahs. They've known one another longer. Im kinda new. So yeahh. Nothing much to talk about. It was raining so I asked Alan if can I not work today. & he was more than happy to send me home[not literally] since he was told that casual labours are now only allowed 5hrs of work. Sheesh. I was torn apart on whether to work or not for awhile. I didnt in the end.

Made plans with Lio butdidnt reply cuz it was 'too early' for him i pressume. So asked Jo to meet me. Yupp. So I walked in the rain with Reena, Abuzar & Nasser. Took 175 to West Coast. Waited like gundu at the market bustop for abt an hour for these Kings. Initially, Lio wanted to join me & Jo with his othr 2 new girl friends. But then he was meeting them at 4. Yupp. In the midst of waiting, saw Fyda in 189 & we communicated by sign language. haha! Met Yasmin & we talked for awhile. Did some catching up. & saw Jia Qi & Jian Ping. They are still going strong! & finally, the Kings came. Like wth right? A girl waiting for guys instead. Ughh!

Made our way to JE to eat at Zingdo. I didnt eat since Im still full from the breakfast. So I played with Lio's PSP(: Uber fun!

There was this moment. Imagine ppl! Im holding on to the Lio's PSP. I didnt know what keys to press so Lio helped me out. He practically held my hand. His palm was cuddling lightly on mine. He didnt remove it but stayed there for awhile while the game was loading. I looked at our hands. My heart skipped a beat. I tried to make out Jo's reaction. But they were talking to each other abt something. Gosshhhh.

After eating, off to Orchard by train. I realized that Lio & I appear to be more like couple-like rather than me& Jo. Today, I took extra notice abt my surroundings and the ppl ard me. & thats when realizations hit me. HARD. Jo was obviously not happy with Lio tagging us along. Watever.

Ohh yeahh...I was 'attacked' by a pigeon. Goshh! The pigeon was blocking our way so it didnt know where to fly & it flapped it's wings, hitting my legs. Freaky! Once in a lifetime experience. Lio said it's an unlucky sign. Or maybe a lucky one. haha. Thank God I wore jeans.Cldnt feel the eeky-ness.

Went to HMV Heeren. I was bobbing my head to the music while looking at the cds. Then, I over-heard whispers of a couple near me.
"Who does she think she is?" Guy.
"She's being flirty/cheeky" Girl.
"Move or less ar." Guy.
The convo was in malay. I didnt realized that it was me until a few seconds after. Ignoring them I just walked out with the guys. Then, at the top floor, I saw the couple again. I figured that it was them since they were looking at me. What the hell did I do to them?!
I told Jo abt them. Then he was like who doesnt have problems with me. At that fcuking instant I could feel my heart breaking. It hurts. He just gave me a side-hug and said he was kidding. My face totally changed from then on.
Lio took 143 home & we walked to the bustop. He kept asking me if I was okay. At first I was like nothing.In my heart I said if you know me that well, u'll noe that something is wrong with me. I didnt want to tell him the truth so I said cuz of the couples just now. He was like,"Why are you bothered by them? You dont even noe them & like I said everyone got a problem with you." I was like WTF? I knew he fcuking meant it. He side-hug me again & said he was just kidding. I felt like saying fcuk off. He asked me at the bustop, why Im not wearing the bracelet he gave me. I said as if he's wearing it. & being a bastard that he is at that moment he replied,"I dont have a reason to, since your feelings are fading."

FUCK OFF.
I swear he cld just kill me at the spot.
& she cursed her own bf the whole day.
[edited.12/03]

Posted on: Saturday, March 1, 2008
Posted at: 10:40 PM