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so sleep alone tonight
She wants to be happy.
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Beseech
Don't judge me.
I'm touchy, so be nice.
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& all she can do is wait.
Today was kind of a bore until it was Effective Writing Skills lesson. haha! Sicko sakk these people! We're spposed to make posters to promote brocolli. & 2 of the posters came out sick. Like SERIOUSLY. hahaha! wth. Was a little mad & irritated by some people. Some RACISTS people. Sheeshh. I just cant seem to get away from these kind of ppl la. Just like Wedge. But I still love him though(: Looking forward to Thursday sooo much la! I told Bella that I havnt seen him for like forever & she asked me how long has it been? Then I was like since Sunday. & I blurted with laughter. She was like wth. hahahaha! Sorry but i does feel so/: oh well. Waiting PATIENTLY. && of cos, FRIDAY. Hoping to see Hanie again soon(: Also hoping to get to see Izie 2mr, if she's gg for photography. No pressure girl!(: Currently stuck to MadTV-Can I have your number? Introduced by Rae(: Harder than a rock.
Trying with all my might to be happy for them. Its hard. Really it is. Turning into a monster is not an option. It is not the same anymore. But hey, if that makes them happy then, why not?(: I promise I wont dwell on it. I'll try my best not to. 24thMay.
In the morning, went to Je lib to complete my POM project. Dear accompanied me. That guy keeps complaining when he's hungry. Sheeshh. Went to get waffles and then ate ice-cream. Felt like puking when cabbing to Vivo. I really felt sick. Met up with Izie&Ron ouside Zara. I just love them(: I asked for nay phamplets from Zara but they got none. There goes my marks for my POM): But whatever. ate at Banquet where Ron got angry with the wrong food order he got. What an ass la the ppl there. I mean, customers are always right & he cant get to change to what he ordered. Goshh. He went to buy other food from other stall instead. After Vivo, we headed to Hort Park. It is added to my favourite list of places in Spore. THANKS IZIE for bringing me there!(: Izie's house is gorgeous la! She is ever-so kind to let her house be a showroom for Hort Park visitors. hahah!(x It was a real hot day. Someone seemed like he has just bathed. EWW. hahahah!(x After Hort Park, we went our seperate ways. Izie&Ron went to take 61. Dear&I went to Queensway to get his shoes. But it's not in stock. The only stock that they had for his size is the new design for Everlast. Not really nice la. So he decided not to buy them. Then, we went to Anchorpoint's Secret Recipe. He makes me laugh ALOT. If only I sprayed my drink out into his face! It really feel great to spend quality time with him(: We sat on 'the bench' after having our drinks. Yesterday was a priceless day for me(:As for today, I gotta mugg for my coming common test!! SHITS. L-O-V-E.
Read Rosie's blog. & I feel the same way as she does. Her relationship with her boyfren is for only 3 months & she felt that their relationship has been years. She was shock when she counted each and every day their relationship continues. It is like only for a short time and it feel like forever. & thats how I feel too. Since the last 4 patchups we had, this is the most strongest one. The 5th one. It will be our 2nd month this coming Sunday. & I thought it has been longer than that. haha! You could say that we are inseperable. That is why it felt longer. Yeahh. It is true that I could see myself in the future with him. I saw us during the 3rd breakup period. & I was like,'DAMN IT!'. hahaha! Really, it is true. I was hoping that it'll be a cauncasian instead but its him. Jengjengjeng. hahah! However, now that we are going on strong, Im glad of what I saw in the past. I could never ask for someone more loyal and kind than he is. But in look wise, I could do so much better! hahahaha! Im just kidding, dear(: You can get a better looking girl than me too, I bet. Girls are queueing up. You're just being ignorant. Love knows no boundaries. Just hope it wont end up like most of the couples. Nowadays, there arent any true love stories. Not many anyway. Dont worry girls. We will find someone for us. Knights in shining armour, THEY'RE SOOO OURS!!(x uh-oh.
WHAT AM I BECOMING INTO?
Guilty as charged.
Watch Congkak with Izie & Ron. Throughout the whole damn movie I was closing my eyes and ears. I dont know if it is scary. I mean, I missed out the scary part. ahaha! I got shocked out of my skin. I beat Dear to it. Sheeshh. I have a ball-less boyfren. He either get scared out of his wits or he'll sleep during horror movies. Gosshhh. However, he was the brave one during the movie. Thank God. My ears hurt from closing them too hard. hahs. Had a blast with Izie. Long time since we've met. Ard 2 weeks?? yeahh. Glad to see her puffed-up face again. haha!(xDid something wrong. Temptation level hit jackpot. I did not find pleasure in it since the guilt level was the same. Fcuk. Should have not done it. Honestly, it is addictive as having a cigarette for the first time. I DONT SMOKE. I DIDNT TRY TO. It's just to emphasize my point. hehs. Im never gonna do it again. Until the right moment comes. Im sorry): Pics 8. [Izie&I]
 Izie&I; BREEKS please?   My fave(:  Please dont let anything ruin everything that we've built throughout the years. Pics 7. [Hanie&I]
 Hanie & I; We are super hot!  Love the pics taken from top view!(:  004.jpg) I'll love her no matter what.Nobody can tear us apart. NO ONE. Pics 6. [Haikel & I]
 Haikel & I;
 I love him.  The Drama-mama.  Didnt noe wat pose to give/:  He never fails to make me laugh. Pics 5. [Dear & I]
 Dear&I; Our legs. lappie and us.    There's that finger again. Sheeshh.  He acts cute, I act gangsta.  My fave(:  Wats with the face?? Damn act cute laaa..!  My bunny teeth. Pics 4.[MK0803]
 MK0803; Was bored in lecture. Sean, Ming Hui & Charlie. They just love my hair.  Rae & Reuben.BUZZ OFF.
DONT YOU DARE TALK ABOUT MY FRENS LIKE THAT!Who do you think you are?? Fcuk off la. You hurt them, you're hurting me too! Whoever you're refering to, I dont noe but still if you say that she's my fren then, she is! So stop offending her!! I swear if I ever find out who you are, you will be DEAD. IM FED-UP WITH EVERYTHING. Just be gone. Dont make my life more miserable for me )":< Fcuktard.
Accidentally met up with Sarah & Sammy. Miss them so much. hahs. Its good to see them again. The day was really great before I received the news. I feel like such a fcuktard. It wasnt intentionally, of cos. Im so sorry. I noe sorry wont do any good. I'll make it up to you. I promise. How can I hurt someone so precious to me? Ive got nothing to say anymore. A day at the movies.
I HAD FUN HANIE!Thank you so much! MUAKS!(x The movie was THE BEST. I fell deeper for Ashton la can?? hehehe. It was hilarious and soo sweet! OMG. I wanna watch it again. This time with Dear. But fcuk, he's too busy. Siggghhss): Hanisah, another outing please?? This time for a longer time. I wasnt content with yesterday. Must wear the black top and boxers! huhu(x Hothothot! lalala will be back for more to say. BAD BAD GIRL.
Skipped lecture today. POA tutorial is cancelled today. So there wont be any rush to skool. Couldnt really get up for skool just now. Received Nabilla's msg that Kelly and her were skipping. So i joined in. I mean POM lecture is total crap? I dont even understand him and he's my tutor too for God's sake. ughh. So Im gna go skool for only 2hours of Effective Writing lesson. Haha. oh well. Thank God that I completed my asses for Eff Writing. Phew. So yeahh, I dragged myself out of bed since I told myself that I'd pray. Its been freaking long since Ive prayed to Allah. Goshhh! What is wrong with me? ughh. After praying, I didnt get to sleep. So Dear & I msged for awhile(:Dear & I went to JE lib with Izie & Ron. And then went to IMM to get Izie's mom's birthday cake. HAPPY BIRTHDAY CIK! haha(x On the way home, it was really fun. haha! Cheated Dear's feelings. Told him that Im going to watch movie with a guy today. Alone. He was so bothered la. hahah! Of course I wont go with a guy. ALONE. Im going with my darling HANISAH! CANT WAITT!!! Dear & I had a really emotional talk at least 1 hour plus near my flat. Sighhs. He told me about how he felt on the past we had & all. He was so vunerable & so sincere which made me love him even more. He's the one who's supposed to cry but Im the one who ended up shedding some tears. He claims that he needs to be the strong one. EGO. hahah! I couldnt leave him at that moment when our talked ended. It was hard. I want to stay with him for the longest time possible can? Sighhs. HANISAH! I AM GONNA SEE YOU IN 7 HOURS TIME! YAY! YOU MAKE ME A HAPPY BIMBO. ILOVEYOUILOVEYOUILOVEYOU. Im all yours later!(: I'll be your shoulder to cry on & your listening ears. Tell me EVERYTHING. SCREAM at me if you want to. I'll be there for you no matter what. Hang in there my precious. Saturday;BLISS.
Spent my Saturday by attending Photography Club Outing with Izie love. Such a bore la. Nonetheless, the atmosphere at the National Stadium was really peaceful. The cold wind took our minds off our problems in our lives away for a long moment. Sighhhsss. I planned with Izie to go there before its demolishen if we ever get stressed out in the near future. You scream in the stadium no one will hear you. Its only you and the forlorn stadium. The building is really old. & the seats are terrible. But nonetheless, it is a historical place for Singapore. The outing was kinda interesting in a way. Reuben, his fren[I didnt catch his name even though we met twice] & Rae[aka Fate]. Haha. Rae irritating la can? Each time he sees me, he keeps saying its fate q-_-p'' But it is funny. haha! At ard 12, the seniors were like if you guys have to go off early, you guys may go. We were uncertain for a moment but then, we made our move. The 3 lill pigs[Reuben & gang], were the first to go. Followed by me & Izie. We lost our way when going out of the stadium la. haha! Only one gate was open. & us, girls, tried to find our way back to Kallang mrt but we found a bus straight to PS instead. Bussed there & met up with the guys. A day spent with Dear was bliss(: I loved his company. For once! Haha! Kidding(x & of course, not forgetting Ron's & Izie's companies tooo! We love you! Camwhored ALOT with him. Finally, we have pics of ourselves. Whee!(: Got a chance to go to the bridge & took wonderful pics there. Wish came true. I LOVE YOU DEAR. I miss her.
I MISS NUR HANISAH BINTE ZULKIFLI.REAL BAD): I want to see her, pretty please? Im sorry Hanie for not returning your calls. Im too exhausted & my fcuking asses and projects are piling up. I know theres no reasons for us not to keep up with each other but Im an ass. I MISS YOU like God knows how much! I need to see you and spend more time with you BADLY. )": ASSES.
As you know, asses are killing me la. Scored ZERO for Access for God's sake! Sheeshh. Well, my class is getting along okay lor. They quite funny in a sick way most of the time cuz of Rae. haha. He's like Wedge la. The level of sickness. Sheeshh. Reuben is like LY but his sense of fashion is nicer. haha! Sorry LY. I STILL LOVE YOU VERY MUCH. Eventhough a few of my classmates remind me of my close ones, THEY STILL CANNOT BE REPLACED. They are one in a million to me(: yupyup. 2mr is photography club outing. Going with my Love! Whee! Cant wait la. I just hope it wont be too hot and humid since we're going to National Stadium./: Hope I'll take good pictures. I am soo freaking tired. I fell asleep in today's POA lecture la. Haiyo. My present for Izie is still pending. I got no time la. ughh. Sorry Izie. Syu surprised Izie today. She went to NYP and surprised her. I didnt noe how surprised she was cuz I went out looking for her. haha! Glad Syu brings her smiles(: This is random but I seriously miss Abuzar): The times we had were playing in my head once or twice. Sighhs. Anw, Im starting work next Saturday. Hope to see most of my beloveds people there(: Okay. Im gna rest now. Hope to have a good day 2mr!(x sighs.
The most saddening part of today is when I wanted to call my fren's name, it came out as Hanisah's. It broke my heart. & that's how much I miss her. TODAY IS IZYAN LIYANA'S BIRTHDAY! WOOHHOO! I love you, my one and only love!(: Happy freaking 17th! Didnt get to see her though): My class today was fun. Had some laughs. Charlie cracks us, girls up la! hahaha(x He's a good guy. & the hottest one too!(: After school, went to meet Dear. Met Zalika in the train. Didnt talk much cuz she was with her fren. Arrived at Jurong & the first thing I noticed is that me & Dear wore the same shirt!q-_-p'' Busybody! hahaha. Yeahh. && met Haikel tooo!! Spent quite some time with him. Went popular and then took bus home. I miss him to the core la. Camwhored with our new lappies!(x I LOVE YOU, MY DARLING IRRITANT! muaks!(: The trip home after Haikel went off was a mind-boggling one. We were cracking our heads on what was the cause of our awkwardsness we were feeling. haha! Haiyo. Alls fine now(: I love you Dear!(x what a day. & now, ASSES is really a pain ar! ITS PILING UP LIKE NOBODY'S BUSINESS. sheeshh! I really gotta get started & HAVE SOME DISCIPLINE! ughh. What's the fcuk is wrong?
It was so fcuking awkward. Something is definitely wrong. Or maybe missing. Is it a sign from God? Did he answered my questions that I asked him?If it is, His signs werent clear enough. Or maybe Im trying to be ignorant. It is most likely to be an answer which I certainly didnt want to know. Or maybe it's for the best. Changes.
My class is getting along fine. Thank you, God. Okay fine, arguing does sucks. But still, Im stickin to my opinion that without arguements the relationship is boring & they wont get to know each other that well. Yeahh. But yess, it sucks sometimes. Okay, im repeating myself. Sorry ppl. Hanie my darl, I think you should let fate be in charge. I dont want to see you get hurt anymore. Please do take care of yourself when Im not around. If I ever come across that guy again, I will sure bite his head off. Dont worry. What a love story.
I heard my fren's, Rosental, her current love story. Its so sad but sweet at the same time. I salute her. Promises are always made when you're in relationships. Especially by the guys. Promises, scares me. I think it is sweet but when I know that it wont happen, it scares me. Sometimes, it's better not to make any promises rather than breaking them. I just hope for the best. Insyaallah. Thx Fiq(:
Thx Mohd Shafiq Bin Nahar for cheering me up.I LOVE YOU(: I'll punch your other eye when I get to meet you again k? I miss your fatass(x I feel fcuked up can?
The Monday blues is getting to me. FCUK. Firstly, I dont get a single thing what my MacroE tutor was teaching just now. FCUK LA. I feel so fcuking lost! Maybe I seriously made the biggest mistake by joining Marketing in the first place. UGHH. The canteen is fully packed & I cant get something to eat. Now, Im in lecture theater & all the front rows are taken. Usually, my class gets the front rows but now, its taken up by some busy-bodies from other class. & Im sitted at the back which is where no one can concentrate. Cuz there's where all the fcuking asses noisy people are. SHIT. Im blowing my top now! ughhh. & plus, I have freaking make-up class later until 5. && I HAVNT EVEN DO MY ASSES FOR THAT PARTICULAR SUBJECT FOR GOD'S SAKE! I JUST WANNA GET OUT OF HERE LA!)": Camwhore with mom!
  Camwhored alone while waiting for my mom to get ready. hahah!  Her,'Make sure you come back home early!' look.   Okay people. She's really scaring me!  HELP ME!!  Everybody now, 'AWWWW..."  That's my mom for you(: Pics3.
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