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so sleep alone tonight
She wants to be happy.
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Beseech
Don't judge me.
I'm touchy, so be nice.
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Moodless.
Today is Kent Ridge 8th Speech Day & Izie&I attended. Firstly we wanted to go so Izie asked Ms Lim if we are allowed into the school. Her reply was not what we expected from her. Seriously. Whatever. Dont want say anything bad about her since there's ppl who might just read this & inform her or stuff like that. She changed, that's all Im gonna say. ANYWAY, Dear invited us to go after he informed Mrs Tee[I have no idea who]. Yupp. So we arrived outside school, afraid of going in. Didnt know that our own school can be a threat to us. Tsk. So we approached one of the usher at the side gate. haha! Saw Peiwen from far & signalled her if we can go in. She asked Mr Yamin & we followed her to him. He looks goood! hahaha! wth. He told us that we can go up to the gallery. So sweet of him(: So yeah, we rushed to the gallery but we were panting after a portion of the 1st level flight of stairs.q-_-p'' What more to the 4th level? Its been long since we've climbed those flight of stairs la can? hahahahaha!(x So we went to the gallery. Sat there, trying to spot people we know from the award receipient side. Spotted Sarah, Chia Yee, Sammy, Sai, Gerri, some 4e6 ppl, Fyda, Jian Ping and Dear(: Lionel & Ben Goi came a few minutes after. haha. Its been ages since I've seen them! Ages I tell you! Yupp. Lionel, Goi & Izie went off to band room to visit those ppl there since they're from band, leaving me at the gallery cold & lonely. hahaa! Kidding. When they came back, Izie was like damn pissed. Their conductor if Im not mistaken slammed the door at them. Like WTF la! They said hi to him then he just looked at them without any respect & went into the band room & shut the door behind him. FCUK. They were freakin piss la. I felt pissed for them. Sheeshh! I mean, WHAT'S HAPPENING TO KR?? We fcuking contributed to the school for a whole of 4/5 years of our lives, did them proud & this is what we receive from you guys?? I thought it's been always 'Once a Kent Ridgean, always a Kent Ridgean.' But NOOOOOO! You guys dont even allow us to attend any of the events. You even chase us out during camps. Do you know how hurt we felt? FCUK. All of these are getting on my nerves. I'll shut now. It's so good to see them receiving their awards on stage. I feel so proud of them(: Izie&I went for refreshments after the whole thing. The food was good. haha! Met with SOMEONE & that SOMEONE doesnt seem happy that we're there. Whatever. Caught up with Sammy, Sarah, Chia Yee & Sai. Ohoh! Ms Wan was there tooo! Omgomg! I miss herrrr!! My one&only fave form teacher & also Amaths teacher. I LOVE HER!(: She looks good but just a lill weary. I think it's from the travelling. Also caught up with Mrs Soh! OMG. Her baby is soo cute! My condolences to her heartbreaking news. I just hope her son will grow into a healthy kid(: God's will. Mrs Sim was there tooo!! Her baby is just as cute! haha! Baby galore!(x Im glad that she finally managed to conceive(: Sighhs. Happy moments. Ate with Ms Fahizah & we[us, councillors] sat together with her to chat. We gossiped. haha! SHHH!(x I needed to off from there since I had plans with Dear. He wasnt in a good mood. I straightened things out with him. Ended up at WCC & we continued our talk. Didnt go to where we're supposed to cuz of some issues. Sighhs. Went to WCP instead since Fyda they all are there. haha! Sorry for the delay guys. Arrived there after a hot & humid long walk. Greeted by the smiley faces which belongs to Fyda, Aishah, Yas, Aliya, Izie & some guy. haha! The guy didnt smile though. Anw, I bought Double Choco Frappe which never fails to cheer me up & an apple pie. The Choco Frappe got me high & crazy. Had a blastful of laughters with those girls. I love them(: haha! I wish you guys all the best for your Os. I know you'll kick ass! Woohhooo!(x Thanks for the laughs guys. I needed those. Yas was talking to the ducks, well, she's TRYING to communicate with the ducks. I mistaken a dog for a kambing[goat]. Fyda was poked by Aliya's umbrella. Aishah was our all-time fave lampost.[Fyda kena framed(x], Izie was there as our spectator. hahahahaha! FUNNY BUNCH(: Its hard for one to be accepted into another's family. It is agreed that one is a nobody to another's family. So one cannot take advantage or be overly-enthusiastic or be too comfortable with the other's. You will never know when they will just turn their back on you. Not refering to anyone, btw. Im just speaking my mind & what my mom had adviced me on. I'll take my mom's advice seriously. I wont do those things. Cuz one will not know if there is a possibility that he/she will achieve his/her dream of marrying their significant other. There are so many obstacles in life that we need to go through. People said things which they meant, make promises to one another but we actually have no idea what will happen in the near future. It's all in God's hands. All we can do is to ask him for the best & ask him to lead us to the correct path in life. We have no control on whatever comes. My mom always say that friends come & go. I never did want to believe any of that. I was in denial. & as I get older; every second, every minute, I realised that it is true. Is it because Im not putting in much effort to keep things going? Or maybe, Im not a good friend? I seriously have no idea. I did my best in keeping my friendships going. Maybe jealousy got the best of me. Maybe Im feeling insecure since all of us went our seperate ways. Maybe I didnt do the very best that I should be doing. I dont know how to feel any longer. I dont know if I should give up. I wonder if I should give up. However, i dont want to. I dont know. Maybe, I am not a good friend after all. So much for a lifetime. |