Maybe if my heart's stops beating, it won't hurt this much.

Beseech

Don't judge me.

I'm touchy, so be nice.

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IZYAN HANISAH KAK ILLY SYUHADAH JOHAN NABEEL HERLEEN KELLY SHIYUN JIA HUI CHLOE MR PERRY LAI WEI JU HAIKEL SYAFIQAH KRISTA NAB ILLA
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I love Izyan.

lalalalalalalalalala~
Met up with my dearest Izyan for lunch.
Happy as ever(:
hehehehehehehe.

I miss her already.
If can go out on National day k??
Love you always. MUACKS!

Felt damn lonely.

Why cant life be full of happiness for once? One do not have to worry about anything at all for once. When one problem is solved, another is created. Sighhs...

Went school today, alone, since Bella's not feeling well. Had Stats lecture & then Marketing tutorial. Bored as ever. They're all talking in Chinese mostly. Oh well, cant blame them la. Went Jurong library straight after school. & yeahh, alone. Fcuk. I dont know how loners can survive without anyone around.

Apparently, today isnt quite a good day for me. So, I was waiting for the arrival of Miss Hanisah who will for sure brighten up my day! & YES, SHE DID(:

We talked things out. Everything's fine now. Thank you God for answering my prayers(: How I've missed the laughters that we used to share. Sighhs. I LOVE YOU HANIE! Muacks!(x

History has repeated itself. It never did change. Why does humans want to hurt one another? What do you get from it? Pleasure? Satisfaction? Pride? How long would all of these last? Just for a short fcuking while. However, the impact that you've made to the victim will leave a scar forever. Even if the victim forgave you. It will still be a part of their inner vunerability. Their trust wont be wasted on you anylonger. How I wish I could change you.

Hanie has made me realized a whole lot of things in my life right now. I have God, mom, Izyan, Hanisah, Johan, a roof over my head, food to eat, allowances, education, clothes & much much more. I must be thankful for all that God has given to me.

& even if my friends & I do have fights, I still know that they will always be there for me & they will always love me. Cuz I will do the same for them.

Thank Hanie for opening up my mind. You've brought tears to my eyes by the things you have told me. I love you, my darl. I've always known that our friendship wont be wasted just like that. This will just make us stronger.

(PS: We saw MANSUR! Speaking of the devil! Sheeshh.)

I dont want anything to change between us. I have enough of the conflicts which keep coming back, to & fro. Please tell me that everything's alright?

Pics 10.

Saturday, 26th July. Ms Fahizah's wedding.

Isnt she gorgeous? I LOVE HER.

Fyda & I. Miss her so much laa!

The food damn nice can?? YUMYUM.

Monday, 28th July.

Project mates. Rosental had to go to work.

Kelly kelly wah wah!

Bella eh eh!

Oh-so cute Jiahui(x

Dear.

My beloved lappie.

The human on the earth that I miss the most)':

& she's my oh-so sweet honey.

A very adorable boy who speaks Gibrish. HAHA!

& my tummy was damn huge.

I need to back off.
I think Im getting out of hand.
I think Im too forceful.
Shit.
I suck at this.
I really do.

SHUT UP ALREADY.
Before I poke you with a Q-tip.
Ughhh.

Dont feel like blogging.
But I do have pictures to upload.
Whatever.
I'll do that when Im free.

Going,
going,
gone.
***

Anonymos.

Everything's so.....haywire these days.
As the listening ears, I really feel their pain that they're going through. However, I know that they are strong people. I know that they can get through it all. I will always be there for them. I wont complain. I wont avoid. I am more than glad to be the listening ears to those in my life. Dont worry. Everything's sealed. Nothing's gonna ooze out.

Family, friends, financial, love, lust, studies, discipline, health, looks...these carries problems in each & every one of them. Problems wont leave us alone until the day we die. God has let us experience all of these obstacles in life as to make us a better person. We tend to give up if all of these is just too much to handle. The only solution is to ask God to lead you to the right direction in life & he will help you through. God's will.

I have never moved on in life. I thought you did. Whatever it is, I still love you. I have always saved a large portion of my heart for you. Those passed months, I thought you have forgotten about me for good. It was so hard for me to move on. But I got a grip of myself & I pulled myself together. Im sorry if I didnt really check up on you that much. Im sorry if I've hurt you without me knowing. I just hope things will be normal again. Cuz my life isnt normal without you in it.

The moment you poured out your troubled self to me, I feel your pain. You hands in mine, I watched you closely. Sadness in you eyes, I had to be the strong one. Dont worry baby, Im always here. I'll wipe your tears & sorrows away. I will always love you. & you made me stuck on you. & only you.

Why does every single time Im MIA, something will happen? Im sorry for not being able to be there each time shits come up. To be honest, I could sense that something's wrong. & you're calling up to me. But I was too tired on Saturday. Im so sorry. I hope you're not mad at me. Please do tell me what happened. I want to be your shoulder to cry on, your listening ear, your pillar of strength. I cant tell you how much I love you, my love. I just hope you're okay now. Hold on, Im coming to your rescue.

I didnt know how to comfort you while tears rolled down your cheek. If I could replace myself for your closest friend at that moment, I would. Not that I didnt want to be there for you, I know that you needed your bestfriend more. I tried my best to be the best comforter. But I know I sucked. haha. Im sorry/: I just hope that everything will be back on track for you. I'll try my best to be there for you.

Just remember,
when God takes one happiness from you, He will replace with another.
God is not bad at all.
If you remember Him, He will remember you.
If you love Him, He will love you more.
If you hate Him, He will still love you regardless.

&& apart from God, I love people in my life too(:

SERIOUSLY.

Yesterday was just a waste of my energy. Just for the trip to Orchard to collect my pay. Sorry Lio, for cancelling it. I went straight after my project & you have your aikido anyway. So ya, went Shangri-la & the road was just full of policemen. Arrived outside the staff entrance which was equipped with the big metal scanner & the machine which checks the contents of your belongings. If you guys have watched Bring it on; all or nothing, you should know what Im talking about. So yeahh, I couldnt get through it since I dont have the staff pass. Fcuk. Im just a part-timer so I didnt have the staff pass. One of the policeman was studying my moves, & I was acting like a perspiring-fcuked-up-rotten-looking girl. I was so pissed off la. Agus finally came down & told me that I still cant go in. UGHHH! I wasted my fcuking time & energy to go there la FCUK!
Then the head policeman was speaking to me in a strict tone of voice. Scary lorr. Almost teared in anger, frustration & fear. Sighhs.

Didnt realized how much I've missed you. All I thought about was our tiff, & it really got me frustrated. All is well now, thank you for understanding. However, it's still our fault. Im sorry too. We shouldnt make it an issue.

You won me over with your genuinity,
your care & concern.
You,
yourself has won me over.
You made me fall deeper for you.

PS: IZYAN! You can complete your asses! YOU CAN DO IT MY LOVE! JIA YOU! lovelove you!

Presentation.

Macro presentation is done! FINALLY!

The 2 best group for the day.

Mr Chang YC so cute!

Damien's trademark pose,
THUMBSUP!

My bunch of girls(:

Rosie&Shiyun went off.

I look like fcuking slut.

LOOK AT BELLA! HAHA!

We're so sweeet!(x

Kelly kissed me!

hehe.

Jiahui&I.

The 2 bauy ba girls!

Jiahui&Chloe.

Jiahui&Bella.

Kelly wanted to be a ballerina.

Ming Hui la sehhh!

Chloe. Her toenail came off.

Bella(:

Charlie wanted to be a fisherman.

& I was inspired by him to be one.

Okay, maybe I want to be a business woman instead.

haha! Unbeliveable.

Why cant I stop?

2 days straight I went home together with Izyan! YESSAHH! Miss her like hell man! We both feel damn fcuking stressed out with school. Sighhs. We have no choice but to live with it.

Spposed to meet up with Izyan today & go Orchard but she gotta stay in school & finish up her asses asap. Well, she's not alone.

I had 2 choices, its either you or the person who had hurt both of us. I almost chose that person. ALMOST.

In the end, I chose you instead.

This is the 2nd time that I fell into this trap but I managed to save myself before I've fallen even deeper.

Im truly sorry. I should have listened.

Please say you still love me?

Hating me.

I bet some VIPs in my life hate me right now.
FUCK.
Impulsiveness does cost you everything.
& now my mom's lecturing me...
can I vanish from this face of this earth now?

MEMEME.

Camwhoring during lessons.
MUAHAHAHAHAHA!(x